Love, at its deepest and purest form, is a monologue. I come to this conclusion based on a long-held conviction that love is selfless, without expectation. Like a monologue that does not expect a response, we love because we love and not because we expect to be loved.
We love because it is the simplest, purest form of a selfless state of self-expression. We love because we accept the “what is” of the Universe; without reservation, without judgement. Love is not a projection of our desires, wants, or even needs on the external word; love is the very inverse whereby we absorb the as-is of this Universe, allowing it to be whatever it needs to be.
In some very weird ways love is even a reversed monologue; in this one might infer that love is a form of listening. But it is not merely passively listening; it is ingesting and absorbing and incorporating and integrating the world around us into ourselves. And once this integration is complete we reflect back this — an empathetic understanding — to the outside world.
These many entries found herein are written openly to anyone–you–who wishes to listen. I have no reservations that few read my words. It is enough that I write what I believe. It is additive and precious that some may read and even respond. But I also write to a very specific person: You, if you are that you. It is enough that I love the way I do. The former is of the more literal and literary sense of a monologue, the latter more of the sense of this very entry. As with this entire site, I write as much between the lines as I do on the lines; I write as much to you and to You. In both cases we have a monologue void of expectations of a response from you or You.
I go to knock on doors neither knowing or expecting you or You to open them.
I write words neither knowing or expecting you or You to listen.
I love you neither knowing or expecting you or You to love me.
But I knock; I do.
But I write; I do.
And I love; I do.
We should caveat, as always that this is what I believe love is, this is who I believe I am.
EXIT stage left.
